Why does it have to be grown up or child? Why must I face everything with logic and reason? Why do societies words of wisdom have to dictate my life?
I want to face everything like a child. Wide eyed, ready, innocent and willing to take on whatever is in front of me. I’ve neglected what God has set in front of me: opportunities to lead people to Him, chances to love and serve openly.
Why can’t I have the faith of those fishermen all He had to say was Come, follow me. And they did, there was no ‘WAITTTT, Who are you?’, ‘Follow you where??!’ or hesitations. They just came. They didn’t need to know His back story, what He was planning to do they just obeyed.
I want that. I want so badly to live a life of service and obedience. I have to stop making it about me what I want to do, what I think is best, how I want things to work and focus it all on Him. His plans. His will. His love. His power.
I know there’s no other way. I’m done with it. Logic and reason can’t explain the miracles, the power, the grace. Who can explain the spirit that dwells with in me?
Psalm 144 Praise be to Lord, my rock, who trains my hands for war and my fingers for battle.
It is a battle. Every friend, stranger, or enemy is a battle I have to win.